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I'm hopefully going to be returning to weekly (or at least bi-weekly) posts again and this post is an attempt to return my postings to their regular scheduled intervals. There is no news to report this week, since as I've stated I am not going to be writing about work. The only events that occurred since my last post was the fact that Danielle and I have now both come to the conclusion that our relationship is effectively dead (we have conflicting life goals and seem unable to compromise on them). This has been expected by me for quite some time, so it's not really news. Expect a change to my border design sometime in the near future. And then yesterday I help organize a birthday party for a fellow Google intern who had just turned 19, so a small group of us saw what we could of the sunrise over the Golden Gate Bridge (couldn't see much due to the fog, bt it was fun), went go karting, had a guava cake (which was pretty good--apparently I did a good job finding a fairly good baker with interesting fruit type cakes in such a short notice; I had just found out about her birthday a little over a week before), and we all saw a movie (Knocked Up) and had dinner. It was a pretty fun/interesting day, but no really good stories for me to tell.

Lately though, I have been bothered by questions that for the longest time I've always known the answers to; however, lately I haven't been finding the answers. Namely the question of: what next. I have always had some type of goal to shoot for, but lately I have found that I've been reaching most of my goals. While some people might be happy with that, for me reaching a goal is only a transient pleasure--deserving of a golf clap or a pat on the back. The fun is in the pursuit and reaching constantly higher--striving toward self improvement and goals that seem unattainable. Then there is also the issue of relationships--I don't want to waste another 4 years in a relationship that ends up going nowhere (plus I feel I'm less physically attractive now than I was 4 years ago--although now I'm much more confident and more social than I was 4 years ago, so it might balance out). Plus, while I used to enjoy random flirting and random dates (random meaning both spontaneous as well with random people I've never really met) the appeal of these things just aren't there as much for me. I'm sure I'll figure it out sooner rather than later but until then, these are the thoughts that have been racking my brain as of late.

UPDATE: I have a new short story posted on my former blogspot page. I will try to periodically create new works of short fiction for my blogspot page every so often. I will also probably integrate those posts into my writing space sometime in the near future.

posted by Mike Oren  # 1:43 PM